Updates.

“One ring to rule them all,
One ring to find them.
One ring to bring them all,
And in the darkness bind them
In the land of Mordor
Where the shadows lie.”

I’m back at work finally, and school, after a sufficiently long holiday, and I find that in the aftermath of holidays like Christmas it is easier to sink back into routine. It’s as if real life itself, the unthinking repetition, the schedules, the weekly gatherings, all of that is the real vacation. The holiday retreats are there simply to pull you out of it, make you adapt to something else, in order to help you appreciate just how nice it is to know the boundaries of your system. It also makes you appreciate getting paid a hell of a lot more - going a month without a paycheck as an independent student almost had me reaching for the Kraft dinner.

There is something to be said for the sedentary nature of modern life. It’s like confetti: while in the air it changes beautifully, constantly, always showing you new things, always rearranging. But you have to keep it in the air, you have to fight the gravity of security and comfort constantly, and once it drifts to the floor, it becomes lifeless, and more difficult to spur into action, into change. Starting exercising and school again feels as if I finally managed to whirl the pieces of my life back into the air. But not without its measure of sacrifices, fuel for the fan so to speak.